For the past two weeks I have woken up to inbox hate on “Under the Table” & “It’s a Match.” I recognize that my stories are not the best or the most traditional, but it does not excuse hate.
It has gotten to the point where I feel burnt out and uninspired in my writing. My words are dry and I see noticeable differences in earlier chapters to now. I feel compelled to just delete myself entirely from this fandom.
I know I will never be able to write as well as popular reylo fic writers or create a story as great as theirs - but I write stories I ENJOY and what I LOVE to write. The validation and love from my readers are a plus that keep me going. I never knew it also welcomed so much hatred and negativity.
There is only so much I can do and I need a break to decompress and soak this all in.
The forest scene when Kylo said “I can show you the ways of the force” instead of “the dark side.” I’m not sure why. I always thought they had so much tension and chemistry. I felt crazy afterwards and that I was the only person in the world that thought so.
I think after TLJ a lot of Reylos came out of hiding, including myself. I felt so validated.
“There was a table-tennis table. Oscar and Adam played. That got competitive. I decided not to get involved in that. I figured that the First Order were ably represented by Adam. John was a cheerleader for a second.”
— Domhnall Gleeson on what the cast of The Last Jedi did between takes
This is so in character though. Poe being cheered on by Finn. Hux sitting back and watching Kylo fight for the First Order (and Hux)
